I wonder why I always dream about you-both of you. I'm always so happy with you in the dream, and it's very present tense. Like we all made the agreement to put the past behind us. I don't know why I dream of this, because it's not like we will ever be friends again. We weren't even friends when we were. When I see pictures of you now, it's not like I even think to myself, "I miss her,". So why do you keep appearing? Both of you. One of you made me feel so inadequate, and the other..I guess we really did have good times together. Maybe I miss that feeling, of having people around me. The people that surround me now and true jewels and my most prized possessions, but I guess you both will always have a special place in my heart, though we ended unhappily. And maybe I don't recognize how much I really do think of you both, but quickly stuff the thoughts down the drain. There's a part of me that longs to be your friend again, but my pride is too big to pick up the phone. I don't even have either of your numbers to ask how you are. I haven't had those for years. I can be so critical of others, so stubborn, but so hesitant to make a move.
The full moon is in Pisces, and I have to listen to my emotions. I need to align myself with how I feel and recognize that changes need to be made. I will never reach out to you, but I will continue to always think of you. I do not believe that either one of you will ever fully understand how much you meant to me.